Blogs that keep telling you that it’s OK to keep starving your self, and that skinny is the only way to be pretty are horrible and shouldn’t exist.
How can any blog/website enforce the idea that you must put yourself through so much pain and unhappiness. A person who’s going through such pain should never want others feel such a way. I have depression,I hate myself a lot, I’ve self injured, I’ve contemplated suicide many times, and I’ve thought up many more terrible things that a depressed person can think of, but even with all of that, I know my depression is a horrible mental problem that I know I have fight against because it’s trying to force me to believe the worse case scenario, it’s trying to make me believe things about myself that are untrue.
I know it’s a horrible disease that nobody should ever have to experience. I would never want anybody to feel the pain and sadness I’ve felt. They don’t deserve to be that miserable. To the people who start these blogs and anyone who follows them, I just want to make it clear that I don’t dislike or have any personal problem with any of you. As a person with depression, I know what it’s like to believe the worst about yourself and to think things will never get better, but take from a person who’s been there and is still going through it, it does get better. Just keep pushing on no mater how terrible things make seem and you’ll eventually see the real beauty of this world. I can’t guarantee it will happen right away, but I can guarantee that it will happen.
The world is not that evil, simple minded place too many idiots want you to believe. It doesn’t matter if the reason these blogs exist or the reason you follow them is because you feel they’re necessary or maybe you feel that it’s a way to express your anger or depression, that kind of stuff is just not good for the mind. You want to find something that can lighten the weight of depression, eve just for a little, find something that makes you happy. This is the internet, there is always something out there can make you happy (may I suggest damnyouautocorrect.com? Super funny site where I go whenever I’m feeling extremely depressed. Always makes me feel a bit better).
Of course you’re going to have to figure out what makes you that happy? It might be a website or it may be some kind of activity outside of the computer, they are there. The world is not a dark and hopeless place, it is filled good people who will love you and help you no matter what. Just muster a small bit, not even a lot, of courage and hope to find them. You’d be surprised to find how many of them are out there.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT!
No matter how skinny you become, mo matter how much makeup you wear, no matter what clothes you put on your body, there will always be people will try to make you feel like you’re not good enough. Those are people who live a world where people feel it’s ok to make others think there ugly, who want everyone to be the same, and don’t care about the repercussions of their actions. They live in a world where hatred is ok. That’s not a world anybody should want to live in. Despite what these people want everyone to believe, EVERYBODY IS BEAUTIFUL. Weight doesn’t matter.
Being big or small doesn’t determine or beautiful a person is and it doesn’t determine a person’s worth. The only real disgusting people are those who want to make others feel bad about themselves and think they’re being “good and helpful people.” These people don’t want you to know that there is a better world out there, a world where people aren’t small minded jerks. A world where people appreciate the quality of a person’s character, and in that, makes that person beautiful, inside AND out. It may not seem this kind world doesn’t exist, but I promise you that if you go out and truly look, and let yourself experience the world out there, you’ll find them a lot sooner than you think.
As a person with depression, I know my words aren’t going to “cure” any one who reads this. Dealing with self hate is much more complex than that. And I know it’s hard to trust want I’m because the media makes it seem like being skinny will give nothing but happiness and will make your life easier, but I promise you, the world is not that bad. Just hold out a little longer and look, I promise you’ll find people make sure you know that you’re beautiful and and amazing the way you are now. Whether those people are on the internet or real life, you’ll find those people if you try.